Current Issue (Lozada Testimony)

“Ang salitang Pilipino ay tumutukoy sa isang bansa, ang bansang Pilipino. And sometimes, it’s worth taking a risk for this country.” - Jun Lozada

Lozada’s name first cropped up in the media in late January when the Senate Blue Ribbon committee issued a subpoena to “a businessman” who could corroborate the statements of businessman Jose “Joey” de Venecia III that First Gentleman Jose Miguel Arroyo and resigned Commission on Elections chairman Benjamin Abalos were involved in the canceled $329-million national broadband network deal of the government with China’s ZTE Corp.

The businessman was identified as Lozada. Sources said though that he may not be able to attend the hearing scheduled on Jan. 30 because of death threats. The Senate has offered protection to Lozada to make him keep his commitment to testify before the Blue Ribbon committee despite alleged death threats.

My Family

Friends may come and friends may go
Family is first and this I know
Putting friends first is a mistake
And not one that you should make

Family’s forever and this I know
Friends enter your life and then they go
Making friends is fun trust me with this
But not something you would miss

Love your family while they are here
Keep their love very near
Family can leave the world at any time
So don’t make yourself feel like slime

Family is here to comfort you
I know your friends do this too
Without your family you would be lost
Hold on to them no matter the cost

without your family life would be cold
without your family the tears will flow
the more you think the more you know
how you need your family in order to grow

but what seems to me what seems to be
my family is the cause of all my misery
i take it all in but let none
out the world is so cold so so cold

yes i try i try so hard but the more i try
the more i cry
because i can never reach your level
for me it's just to much to much to handle

but without my family i would be cold so i have to deal with the one i own.

My Special Someone

You Have My Trust

I love you so much,
Like I have from the start,
You are the one with the key to my heart,
And you have promised me you will never tear it apart.

you are always there to cheer me up when I'm sad
you are always there to hold me when i need comfort
you are always there to talk to me when I have a problem
you are always there for me through my difficulties and problems

So I believe every word you say,
Because baby only you can make me feel this way,
You are such a great man,
So kind and sweet,
You really know how to knock me off my feet.


You have always been there for me
Makes me smile as I am so lucky you had found me,
Because I am the luckiest girl alive,
To have you the greatest man by my side.


You have earned my complete trust,
Which I must admit was hard to do,
I know these past few days,
You have never let me down,
But I just didn't want to let my guard down.

I hope you understand my reasons for this,
I just didn't want to end up hurt,
And yes we have had our ups and downs,
But the love we have has always stayed around.

So I know with all the things we've been through,
And we still have survived,
That you are the one for me,
And I love you baby with every inch of me,
Together forever we will always be.

My Teenage Life

Growing up i always knew what i wanted to be:
not an engineer or an architect, but a lawyer. loved.
maybe right in my spare time.

i remember the man that once became a part of my teenage life.

he talked to me. told me stories, shared his secrets, trusted me to keep them, shared his feelings. He wasn't afraid to care about me. he listened to me, never laughed at my secrets, never betrayed my trust, treasured my feelings, wasn't afraid to let me love him, in fact he cherished my love of him. i knew he'd never leave me. he like spending time with me. he is always there. he like to hug me, be close to me, hold my hand, look at me and let me look at him. he thought i was beautiful. he was never too busy to stop what he was doing long enough to give me a hug. he always knew what i needed, even before i said anything.

if i was sad, he knew and he'd let me cry, even if there was "nothing" to cry about, and he'd dry my tears. i could get upset, and that was okay, just because i got mad and didn't mean he'd go away. he let me hide behind him, but also protect him. he kept me under control, when i felt there was no control. he let me stumble on occasion, but always caught me before i hit the ground. he kept me warm. he let me be me. he didnt tell me to change. he accepted me as iam. he is always there when i woke up from a bad dream, and made the bad things go away. he helped me. he let me help him.

as a child, i would read fairy tales, one of my favorite was beauty and the beast. and yet i didn't want the fairy tale. i wanted "him". all the others were so stupid. i didn't want the "prince charming", she didn't even know him. i wanted the beast. i wanted a real person who wasn't "perfect" by the standards of the world, i wanted someone who would take time to get to know me, who could understand that "perfection" comes in love. being in loving, loving and letting love be what love is going to be. Beauty and the beast was the best fairy tale example of "unconditional love" that there was. they got to know each other and love grew. And that is what i wanted. imperfections and all.

maybe the loneliness of my childhood is what made "him" so real, but as i said, the insane part is, "he" was the break in the loneliness and i could close my eyes, and feel him next to me, and i wasn't scared. never in my life had anyone or anything brought that comfort.

as time passes by, i had to send "him" away. i started thinking i was insane. i wasn't living in a fairy tale and i never would. "he" had been my escape for so long that i felt like my best friend had just died.

but "he" came back, my friends, sister and i used to talk about "him". "he" was however different when "he" came back. as a teenager, "he" is now just my friend. all my life he was there, just waiting for me. but now,
i admit, i still love him but i do not like him anymore.